I Thought You Were...

I thought you were the one
But now I can see
You were never really there,
Never really there for me

I thought you were the best
That God had to offer
But just like the rest
You were just a sweet talker

From then on I was first
Right after your sports
At first I didn't mind
Now I know that you were way outta line

But you were really nice
Might even say charming
Later it all changed
Its like you didn't even know my name

I can't believe I didn't notice the signs
On how completely wrong we were
I didn't love you
Even though it seemed like everything was but blue

It has taken me two years
To realize its over
Not like we were really "anything"
You were as hard as a boulder

Now that I see
You weren't meant for me
There has always been someone
In the back of my mind

I never mentioned this
To any of my friends
For I know they would laugh
As loud as a horselaugh

To me for a while
I thought of him as a friend
But I'm realizing I think of him a lot
Although I try not to

Ever since I've known him
I guess you could say we've always had chemistry
But it doesn't even matter
Cause I have to let him be

For he likes someone else
A girl I've known since I was seven
All the guys love her
Like she was an angel sent from Heaven

Don't get me wrong
I am not jealous of her
Because I don't like him
At least that's what I think

"I can't possibly like him,"
I say to myself
It will just be another heartbreak
A pain I couldn't possibly take
Again

So as I end
This emotionally long poem
I pray to the Lord he could help me
To make me lovely
In the eyes
Of my secretive
...Crush