The outside view

What is this
this feeling i have
its eating me alive
its healing me
all at the same time
why is it me
the one who's always left
left to stand and watch
as the world is passing me by
I'm not a fighter
so i wont go and force my way
but the words he saying
and the way shes laughing
its killing me
its sending pains to my chest
he smiling,that smile he always has
when hes with her
bet she doesn't even know
that shes the luckiest girl on earth
cuz shes flipping her hair
and smiling back
and my heart is failing
my eyes are filling with tears
why,oh why
did she take him away
why did he leave me
why wasn't i enough
was it something i did
whats wrong with me
that i cant see the truth
someone just slap me across the face
and let me realize
that i need to move on
and just let go
why cant i just say goodbye
and they're walking out the door
he stops when he sees me
and for one moment the world is alright
but then he waves and struts right out the door
as i stand alone
watching them
that should've been me
but now I'm left
the outsider.