Obsessing over my horrid past
Brings tears to my eyes fast
Yanking my heart to bleed
Forcing myself on to feed
He would push me, till I fell
I still dont know what I did to compel
Compel him to hurt me so bad
Compel him to yell and get so mad
He was a great friend
But I still did defend
People saw a change, a difference
I didnt believe, I was in a trance
He captured my soul, my eyes
I didnt grasp the reason of his lies
I was covered in him, in his dirt
Once again thrown, then to hurt
I wonder If hes grown, if hes changed
Im still lost, still disengaged
He caused this, all my grief
I just hope he stopped, itd be my relief
From what Ive stopped to hear
He hasnt, again just one tear
I feel for those, struggling to get away
Trying to get away from him and his horrible way
If only I could have stayed
My present would just fade
I guess I should feel lucky
I dont
