I had a messy life, but that was alright
till i saw you pass by.
I start to worry, started to care
measuring my words, watching every step.
probably making the my biggest mistake !
I must confess I'm a complete MESS,
never aware of the time, never cared for the dimes.
i used to cry over stupid movies,
now i cry because i feel useless.
Now, I'm stuck, dwelling on my misery,
my heart is a torn,
i dread the future, and hate the past;
All i due is think of not to cry
the tears of sorrow,
of what might come tomorrow.
i cant reach peace, I'm having a blast in tears.
A leaf falls, drops of unsatisfying joy
run down my face falling in an endlessly path
And what follows is step two
disguising my tears, because of the shame
i can't let anyone see my illness
(Obsessions, aggressions, misconceptions).
how did I let this happen ?
I trusted,I believed you, had faith
in everyone of yours WORDS.
Worthless, hopes succumbs my heart,
killing my soul, day by day.
I know you think your better,
but that's just your foolish mind
But how about your conscious
Do you feel inside?
Can you actually sleep at night?
You know is worst to fake caring
than acting like a prick
I'm sure you can never have a good sleep
Faking and pretending can sometimes
become your worst enemies.
they'll will fool you in daytime
and kill you at night,
I love your dead corpse
and hate your being.
Has anyone describe you asleep
you look so dead I'll love to die
I see you awake and i hate my life
but what can i do, live or die
those are the choices i get to pick !
is that the price to pay
for your faking act,
but is the movie worth ?
because i think you've make me
watch my roll on your circus,
personifying myself!
My life as hell, as well my death.
And so as well, every time i dream
it feels so good no to be that me.
The one that suffers in daylight
an sees a rapid illusion of what "COULD.IF."?
stupid me, a dreamer at night
hoping to wake up and have a different life.
