I want nothing more than to go to the grave
yet i fear the change. i feel i'm not brave
but what more does this life have to offer
except all the pain that will make her suffer
the touch of cold metal against my skin.
the fear of it all. it makes my head spin.
i look for the courage to press down hard,
as i search through my soul i let down my guard.
i need to end it now. i need to end it quick.
i've chosen my path and to it i must stick.
i must keep going now. there\'s no turning back.
for i've finally realized my life is all black.
i don't want to think. i don't want to care.
i can feel my heart break. it's beginning to tear.
i look around, i see faces i love,
but none of them care. not even god up above.
i find the courage. i make my choice.
i feel relieved. i can now rejoice.
instead i press down. i press hard. i press deep.
the pain is unbelievable. i begin to weep.
i cut deep into my wrist. right into my vein.
i begin to relax. i don't feel the pain.
my blood flows fast. it flows like the sea.
i smile to myself. i'm finally free.
