Can't Take No More...

I'm a very insecure person, and I always have been. My Head's beginning to ache with thoughts of being thin. No words in this world could possibly describe how I feel. Sick thoughts of being skinny are begginning to make me ill. My parents think I'm so tough, But only I know that I've just about had enough. I feel like theres nothing left to do, when my sister wittnessed me crying in the dressing room. I can't look in the mirror without wanting to scream, because she looks better in the same pair of jeans. It's not understandable the way I feel, because I am WAY smaller than she is built. But what is there now? Theres nothing left to do! I should have NEVER came outta that dressing room!!! Don't try to help me, you can't change my mind...I am the one dieing INSIDE!! So just get out of my room and let me lie on the ground while my heart jumps 10 tons a pound! Because I can Do this! Wait! No! Don't GO! I'm lying here on the floor, Cant you see I can't take this no more?!!?