The Chaos Within Me

I do not understand why
My life is in constant chaos
As if there is an on-going war within me
My heart and my mind
Can not seem to agree
And itâ??s driving me crazy

Would death stop the chaos
that is within me?

It feels like I am being torn apart
From the inside, out
By my pains and my misery
My soul has turned black and pale
Caused by the chaos that is within me

The pain, misery, and ddespair|_has corrupted my soul
The hate I have within my heart
Only grew bigger and bigger each day
Until it consumed my heart
And soon it will be the end of me

Now I lay on my bed
Motionless, as if I am dead
I can not do anything now.....
But wait till this chaos that it within me
Consume my soul completely