Your Hand Won't Be There

You're trying to help me
I should be more greatful
But it's tearing me up inside
You're all i can think of
Scared of what's pending
My concentration has ceased
I don't know what to do
My eyes have never cried so many tears
The salty water never seems to stop
You hurt me more than anyone I've ever met
You're so sure i need to face my problems
I don't understand why you wont let me ignore them
You bring up feelings that have been hidden
And should never have arised
I can't cope with these feeling
I don't know what to do
I'm so close to the edge
If i breathe to heavily im likely to fall
You're always busy
I fear when i finally slip
Your hand won't be there
I no you told me to ask for help
But i dont know how
I know your busy and i cant take the rejection
If i were to tell you
I'd need your full attention
Something i sometimes feel
I can only have if im next to you
I'm crying out for your help
And i know you can hear me
But you cant make out my words
If i make it to tomorrow
Maybe i'll tell you then
I wish you were here
I need you so much
If only i could tell you now
Maybe you could help me
Maybe i'd be ok