My little secret

This is my little secret,
no-one knows but me.
I've kept it in for so long,
but it will come out eventually.

Thats why i chose to say this,
right here and now.
I am a cutter,
but i do not know how.

How did this situation pop up?
And why'd it happen so fast?
I've been cutting for so long,
i wonder how long it will last?

Yes, my oldest brothers a druggie, and an immature dad.
Worse of, his sons mother,
is 16 by a tad.

That brother also,
has ADHD.
He has threatened to kill us,
since I'm sure he was 3.

Then theres that other brother,
and hes was cutter too.
But he is much more open,
like what i plan to do.

He's about to be a father,
though he's just 16.
Imagine to our church friends,
how he's being seen.

Theres also m sister,
gorgeous in so many ways.
She has a loving husband and son,
she turned out OK.

Though she has had tough times,
went through the cigarette while.
You might say, thats not so bad,
but it is for a perfect child.

Next theres my dad,
he works till he drops.
When hes not working,
he's sleeping non stop.

He is a wards-men,
and performs ore-Topsy's.
He works so hard,
just to pay family fees.

And I'm not even,
gonna mention mum.
Shes oh so perfect,
except for maybe her bum!

so who knows why
I've turned out this way?
but then again,
who cares?

OK, I'd appreciate if people would read this and post a comment please! this poem means a lot to me!