As I go back to the day
when my grandpa past away
I never cry, but I kept my hands busy
because I did not want to show my emotions to anyone of my family
but later on in life
I found out my Great Great Aunt
was dying from a disease
when she past on, I remember when
I cry at her funeral so loud
I was crying for her and my grandpa
I could not hold in anymore loss in my heart; emotions rush through my heart
to open air, where i slobber in front
of my family and friends
about two years later, my great uncle
past away on March 10, 2006
of old timers disease, and the day
before, he found out his son die
two day before of a heart attack
now when I hear "Amazing Grace"
all I want to do is cry and hide
they play that song at all of them
its very hard, to stand there and hear that song;
When I talk to people about my emotions, my eyes get all watery
then I have tears sliding down my cheeks and to my shirt;
I try to keep my tears in, so I can be strong for my family and friends but,
it does not go that way at all anymore
so I can not hold back my tears anymore!
