Denial

I can't go on living
in denial.
Saying to myself this hurt will
only last a while.
When I know inside, it will take time to get over.
All I can do is wait patiently, like when its time to get sober.

I cant deny the fact that I loved you,
all I can do is regret.
And I can move on without you,
but I can never forget.
Nothing else I can do but
let it burn like a cigarette.

I want to apply more effort
to try to make it work,
but then again I dont because
I cant take the hurt.
It's so hard to let go and I'm
so confused.
I thought you loved me now
I feel like my heart was
abused.

I feel like I was taking advantage
played like a retard.
I'm so weak inside I cant take it,
even though I pretend to be hard.
I feel like the inside of me
is about to collapse.
It will all be better eventually,
perhaps.