Struggle

I sat down to write the other day
Until a conversation with you came my way
And out of now where you decided to
Bring up something special I had given to you

And for the first time you made me feel
Like you actually care about that for real
You told me you read it almost every night
That it makes your heart and mind start to fight

But then my mind did something terrible
It made this all seem so unbearable
It told me not to care for you anymore
My mind wants me to close the door

This could be the best way for me to go
Probably the best way for me to grow
But I still believe that something is there
Each night I still say a prayer

I've realized I already have such a regret
I've realized what can happen and yet
I still want us to be together
I still want to be there forever