Counting down

I lay here lifeless.

Broken, cold, disgusted.

Make me a promise you can keep, I dare you.

I'm counting down.

Counting down to my last breath.

Just another less person to worry about.

I fail life's expectations by a mile.

I fail my expectations by two.

People exchange words of beauty yet I lay here wishing to stop the beating of my heart.

I fear today, I fear tomorrow.

To where did all the time go?

Scraped knees and bed times.

I'd give my entire existence to go back and remain.

Love and learning has warped my being.

Comfort I no longer find.

I reach out, speak out.

My will is crumbling, withering.

My heart, no more.

I'm counting down.

Counting down to my last downfall.

While my situation could be much worse off, it is awful in its entirety and I feel as though paralyzed.

My strength has been denied,

My inspiration lost.

To this world, I have a simple nothing to offer.

Darkness has swept me off my feet.

Hanging by a thread, I?ve crossed the line.

I'm counting down.

Counting down to my last glance into the mirror.

Every glance stabs a little deeper.

I scream, I cry, I wish.

Words I?m finding are useless.

Sometimes tears say all that can be said and understanding comes only with time.

I'm sorry.

You'll never understand.

I'll never understand.