Flashback

I stumble onto the highway
completely unsure of how i got here
mind forgetting everything
except those horrible words

a flashback briefly holds me
spellbound by it's awful image
of me, against you, always
the pain i put you through

you heard me crying softly
curled up on the doorway step
attempting to only help me
you begin to speak your love

oh, how much that angered me
and my terribly broken soul
to hear you whisper lovings
when what i wanted was space

viscously i fought to move you
away from all my problems
unwanting of your solace
wishing to be alone

you would not move for anything
nothing i said could sway you
finally i left you
on that oh so cold step

i blink and find myself again
under the light of a hateful moon
wishing only for lovings
to wrap me up once more

i miss you more than ever
how could i have been so blind
to push and shove, always
when what you offered me was love