What hurts the most

What hurts the most I ask myself?
Is it because I am afraid of the truth
Or is it that you have no proof
What hurts the most?
Is it me hiding behind this fear?
Or is it you not being clear
What hurts the most I ask myself?
Me crying for help
Or you lying to me
What hurts the most?
This pain inside of me
or the fact that you want me to believe
What hurts the most?
The sounds of gunshots echoing through the ghetto
Or a lost child searching for heaven
What hurts the most I ask myself?
The sirens of police cars taking you away from me
or watching big mama on her knees praying
What hurts the most?
Daddy raping his daughter
Or looking at mama putting the needle in her arm
What hurts the most I ask myself?
Me letting go of my dream
Or walking over the edge
What hurts the most?
I'll never know till it's over