My Life is my Death (Revised)

My life is my death,
my passion my pain,
i cannot rest,
because of this strain.

the hurt that you gave me,
the things that you did,
will always be,
the scars that i hid.

you never believed in,
any of my dreams,
you through your sins,
tore me apart at the seams.

I know you wont care,
when i die today,
you wont even stare,
you'll just walk away.

you played with my heart,
like i was some sort of game,
you tore me apart,
and left me in pain.

anguish you left me,
stuck in my soul,
were it will be,
digging a hole.

my being is tattered,
unfixably broken,
my heart it has shattered,
now that you've spoken.

never again,
will i make this mistake,
never again,
will my heart ever break.

I'll make myself numb,
so i cannot feel,
my best friend is rum,
my pain it shall steal.

i know that i,
will never love again,
because i know that I'll die,
tonight by my hand.

my burning desire,
to see blood on my skin,
is like a raging fire,
burning within.

touching me deeply,
are the knives that i hold,
their melody sweetly,
making me cold.

staining my clothes,
are my red crimson tears,
releasing my woes,
pains and my fears.

I'll remember your face,
when i eventually die,
and my soul leaves this place,
and my bodies left to lie.

I'll be alone,
were darkness surrounds me,
cold as a stone,
trapped like a bee.

even in death,
i cannot escape,
even without breath,
your lies still take shape.

i lay in torment forever,
never the light shall i see,
cuz your memory will never,
again let me be free.