Death to my Heart

I love you so damn much,
more than you can know.
I just want to feel your touch,
like a school girl I would glow.

It hurts to much for me to hear,
about the girls that you have kissed.
You pierce my heart with a pointed spear,
wishing to be the only on your list.

Thoughts of you tear me apart,
burns my brain with sorrow.
Shoot your arrows into my heart,
I don't want this tomorrow.

But since I love you I can't stop,
this thing that has begun.
Without you now I feel so lost,
I need you like the sun.

But since I cannot have you,
I don't see a reason I should live.
My heart is stuck to you like glue,
Wish I had something more to give.

I wish that you loved me,
just like I love you.
I guess it just wasn't meant to be,
my love was sent askew.

Flooded I am left here,
lost inside to rot.
I cry a single painful tear,
I wish to be something that I'm not.

Maybe then you'd love me,
maybe then you'd see.
You have broken through my heart,
and destroyed all of me.

You shattered my dreams,
but you were my open door.
Mangled inside my silent screams,
I've lost what I'm looking for.

You never would approve of this,
but I've started to bleed again.
I love feeling the sweet blade's kiss,
cold against my skin.

You were the thing I've hoped for,
you were supposed to save my life.
All you did was make me sore,
and deliver me more strife.

You caused me to do this,
and yet I love you still.
And so I'll lay in darkened bliss,
my life I had to kill.

I want you and I hate you,
why is it like this?
I love you and I hurt you,
was it something that I missed?

Goodbye is what I'll say,
as I lay down to my death.
I love you and I hate you,
I'll say with my last breath.