One again. Alone and still.

Theres a place in my head,
where I can go for hours.
Ill just sit in that spot,
and learn more than I could from books or elders.
I come out with a new understanding of life.
I was just in that place.
And I began to realize.
That shes not coming back.
Shes happy with him.
I can't make her love me.
I know I wont win.
I sit and I try.
We fight but noone cries.
I love her,
oh god I love her,
but she will never care.
She will just stare.
and think to herself
that Im nothing but a loser.
a useless nobody
whos too full of himself to give any thought about anybody else.