Crying..bleeding..dying

I made him cry again
Why do I hurt him so.
Why isn't he smart enough
To just let me go.

Why would he rather stay
And go through the pain
Why can't he see
That I'm not really sane.

I'm bleeding again
Why do I slice my skin
Why must my flesh pay
For the pain I have within.

Can't I see what I'm doing
I'm marking my inner scars
On the outside for the world to see
How many times I've been pushed too far.

Oh my I'm dying
Once again this week.
As if following procedure
My knees start getting weak.

I know I'm gonna stand up
In a matter of time
And pretend once again
That my life is perfect and fine.

Because no one knows anything
They don't even have a clue
That you cry, so I bleed, and then
Start dying for you.