Killing Myself

I've been left for dead
Family, friends, gone.
No one hears my cry
No one asks what's wrong

I'm blinded by a dark light
Shining on my soul, tainting it
A curtain of misery covers me
And I fall down bit by bit

How could this happen to me?
I had so many dreams
Night used to be fun, full of hopes
Now it's just full of screams

If you were to ask how it happened
I honestly couldn't tell you
The eating disorder, the depression
I don't have a single clue

I've been slipping in and out
Of blissful insanity
Wish I could stay where I belong
In the arms of sweet misery

But reality has one hand
Insanity has the other
Wish somebody would hold me
Do you still love me mother?

I know I've been a pig
Mouthy, obnoxious, full of hate
Please help me figure this out
Before it's too late

Is it already over?
A blade against my artery
Close my eyes, push down,
I'm coming, sweet misery.

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