What I'm Feeling Inside

I feel so much inside, I can barely explain
I use to be so happy, but now all I feel is pain
I thought I had the perfect life
But lately, I have had to keep myself from the kitchen knife

I know it is not good to end my life; for I will only bring pain and sorrow
But what's the point of living, when you don't want to see tomorrow?
I am tired of all this weeping
I have to express the pain inside that I'm keeping

My life has turned upside down
And my usual smile, has turned into a frown
My grades are getting really bad
And every little thing, seems to get me mad

I wish I could end this depression
The only way is to make a confession
To tell myself, "You can try,"
But every time I tell this to myself; it just seems like a lie

I know I have to let this pain go that is in the inside of me
To express myself is the key
But what's the point of living, when you already feel dead?
I have to try to not let this get to my head

The only thing that is helping me get along
Is to know how sad and sorrowful my family will be if I am gone
And if I try so very hard to make all these horrible feelings go away
Just MAYBE, I will turn out to be okay

***This is Justina. Some of you probably already read this poem from my old account. My old account got suspended so i made a new one. Plz comment and tell me what u think...***