No one even knows

You say i whine
and cry to much
that I'm faking it
you just don't trust

i say i hurt
in and out
that I'm in pain
but you doubt

why do you think I'm lying?
when you see the tears fall down my face
you don't even stop to think
before you give me a look of disgrace

it doesn't matter if i yell or scream
you just don't care
you still don't believe

why cant you listen to me
and at least pretend to care
just look me in the eye
and say you'll always be there

pay a little attention
to who i want to be
i bet you don't even know
what exactly are my dreams

you don't know what I'm interested in
or why i don't believe
you don't know any of this
because you don't even know me

do you know that i feel ashamed
or embarrassed to be me?
that i cant even look in the mirror
because then ill start to scream

or do you know that i hate to dream
because i know it cant come true
that I'm afraid of the future
because i know ill never measure up to you

how about that i scream at night
and i don't even know why
i just wake up and feel pain
that i just cant explain

that i always feel like crying
and again i don't know why
i just always feel so sad
i wish i could say goodbye

i wanna be happy
and wish away my tears
to say good bye to my memories
after all these years