Letting Go

I want to run
and I want to hide
Then again,
I want you right by my side

Out of control
is how I feel
I can't take much more
I know not how to deal

Trust and truth
is what has died
Just try hard be honest
and try not to have lied

For me it's a struggle
one that is tough
It's incidental it seems
I don't go through your stuff

It's love that I feel
changing quickly to rage
If only I felt
we were on the same page

You want what you want
insisting not to give more
The waiting is killing me
as I head straight for the door

I don't want to leave
if you really don't know
and I want to let go
although it may not show

I want to try harder
to not feel so betrayed
But as hard as I try
it's the bed that we've made

Sad and alone
is almost all that I feel
I need something that makes
these wound quickly heal

I know you try
but yet we're still not there
The place that we long for
we may never again share

I know this sounds selfish
and rightfully so
But its you that I think
needs to start letting go

You're the one who has lied
and kept me in the dark
and the direct result
has made our relationship lose spark

I feel hopeful sometimes
when you want us to be
In a better place
with new perspective to see

What can I do
to make this easy for you
I'll start letting go
or I know we'll be through

What more would you ask
please help me see
Be open and candid
Baby - what's wrong with me

The time has come
for me now to go
Please write me back
and let yourself show

This may not seem, lovely,
sincere, or nice
The other it seems
always pays the price

I'll pay whatever
price you desire
Just open up and
please don't be a liar

Saddened this leaves me
as I now sign away
I want to feel connected
and for you to want me to stay

It may not be long
until you want me to leave
I understand
I have to concede

Maybe I should
Maybe that's what is best
Our relationship's dying
it's not passing the test

I still love you so much
you don't even know
and today I'll begin
to start letting go