I Dont Know

I dont know whats going on
do i like her again?
she has a girlfriend
and forgotten all about me
she doesnt annoy me anymore
i think i annoy her
i cant interfere though
i would definitely be killed
she isnt even my best friend anymore
we lost each other a long time ago
i dont think she has realized it yet
even though she knows nothing about me anymore
she wont talk to me
none of my friends talk to me out of will
so much for friends
i think about her and cant help it
i cant say anything to her though
she would be like i hate you
i hate me so i can understand that
maybe im just feeling sorry for myself
i dont know i just dont know
i have no willpower i have lost everything
and i think it all went to her
we switched places and i hate it
she was supposed to need me
not me need her or anyone for that matter
i need to be independent and now
im just i dont know
i cant stand it
i hate going to school
theres nothing to live for
nothing to work for
Ive lost site of all reality for fear of what might be.
i just need someone to love me.