Lost

Today i got a phone call saying he died
my god please no let it be a lie let it be the wrong person
my heart has snapped into two
i feel all life leaving my body
the weakness in my knees wins i fall to the ground my phone falling from my grasp
people rush towards me
asking whats the matter
i don't hear them
i feel sick i want to die
i feel myself being picked up by whom i don't know
I'm lost in my own world
i just scream
and scream not stopping until the tears kick in
please someone take this knife out of my heart stop twisting it
i need to breath i carnt
someone has their hands around my throat strangling me
i claw out no one is there
i feel a sharp pain in my arm
i look up i see a man in a coat
i feel drowsy
my eye lids heavy
I'm drifting
i see you
you call my name
you open your arms
i come to you
you close your arms around me
is this a dream or is it true
please let it be a dream

Gone but not forgotten
always in my memory and my heart