Reality of depression???

I'm going to loose my life to depression,
But this is what counts,
I'm willing to put up the fight,
For what I hope turns out right.

It doesn't matter how hard I try,
Things don't get easier,
Only being more messed around,
Hoping to be found.

When skies are grey
i'll think of another way,
before ending it all,
Cause I dont want to fall.

I can feel myself slipping,
My hands arent gripping.
I'm about to fall,
And end it all.