A month til my birthday (Resubmitted)

Another year gone by,
my birthday is here again,
The happiest day of the year,
the one which brings me pain,

I try to make it feel happy,
now it's only a month away,
The harder I try, the more I fail,
this pain is here to stay,

I don't know what it is,
I think it's to do with my mum,
10 years I celebrated without her,
can't show her who I've become,

She lives so close to me,
and I'm often feeling low,
because I tried to make it up,
and she doesn't want to know,

It was her fault anyway,
I never asked her to abuse,
her little helpless child,
the girl who just feels used,

So I'll celebrate in style,
try to have a good time,
But I'll never forget my memories,
of the mother who was mine.

Copyright 2006 - Amanda Linzi

Miss you mum....