Emotions

On the outside... I have to act like nothing is wrong in life. Life is good and I'm OK.

On the inside... Dead in feeling. Not in control of painful emotions. Can't go on happy. Want to give in, give up, quit.

These are the emotions I feel as I hear you say you no longer want to be friends or even a passerby hello. You seem to be like everything is OK, but that only makes me feel worse, like you don't even care. You probably don't. How should I know, you won't even talk to me. Now I have to act like I don't care which is hard and pretty much impossible. I don't know what to do with all of these emotions. Until a little while ago, the term, "A heavy heart" meant nothing to me, but now it does. Its hard to realize that you may never talk to me again. I don't know how much more I can endure before my heart dies of everlasting pain. Goodbye!