Reality says never

Sometimes at night
I feel so alone
And wonder if I'm ever able
To keep going on

I hurt so deep
Cause of what I have been threw
But I cant allow anyone
To see if I am blue

So I put on a smile
And my happy face
While I keep on to continue
In the same pace

I know deep inside
What it is that I need
For me to be happy
And my heart no longer to bleed

But I haven`t got the strength
To do what I should
While I dream of a day
That I perhaps could

I want to live my life
With joy and feel free
But sometimes I wonder
Will that ever be

I know what the obstacle
In my life is
And if I got rid of it
I would be filled with bliss

But I am not strong enough
Will I be that ever
I hope I will get there
But reality says never