Were I belong

Ever have that feeling that,
You just don't belong with someone.
Well I do,
And I feel sad for myself for doing so.

Each day I wonder where I belong,
But in the end my mind is left blank.
What should I do,
I'm so confused, with all this pain.

Where do I belong,
is it with this girl,
that I have been with her for three years,
or is not worth it and I should move on.

She treats me poorly,
yelling all the time,
not thinking about what she says,
before she really says those painful words.

I can't forget the way she has her mood,
one minute she loves me,
another she hates me to death,
I'm just so sick of this.

But I must say that I'm thankful for her aunt,
I only wish I had a mom like her,
instead of a drug addict and alcoholic for a mom,
and yet she just doesn't understand how I feel.

If only things could be easier,
but nothing comes easy and that I have learned,
I hate my self for staying with her,
and then sometime I understand why I do.

I just hate how life can be fun and yet so hard,
having his girl with me is sometime annoying,
but I stay with her because... well I'm not sure,
maybe its because I'm to afraid to make the change.

Better yet maybe I'm waiting for her to do it first,
I just know I'm not always happy with her,
Especial after the way she treats me,
so after all this, maybe three years have gone to waste.

So I ask again, Why do I stay with her,
and yet non of you know what its like to be with her,
maybe because someone else out there in the world,
is having the same problem.

Loving her is really hard,
but how much I want to leave is just as hard,
all I want is to be happy,
so should I take a chance and make the change?

A chance that another girl,
just might be better,
or stay with a girl from my teens,
to grow old and hind all my painful thoughts.