I LOVE YOU BUT I MUST MOVE ON

Crying, I fall and crumble to the ground
I search and I look around
But I cannot find him.
I know he will be coming for me soon so I try to hid my face
If I can just be still enough maybe I will erase.
I can feel his hands against my skin as if he were here
There is no need for him to be near
For I already have the sickness in my stomach when the beating becomes fierce.
Do not say you understand because it hurts even more
Because I am the one he is hunting for.
My love, strength and all of my heart
Has torn my world apart
Leaving it shattered and in the dark.
I run from him not to save my life
For there is a child that has not yet seen life.
I wish that I were stronger
But only a while longer
Before my baby comes into this world
And our love returns.
He is only stressed
So he puts his mind off to rest
When he strikes and beats my body
The way I see it he has to hit somebody.
So why not the woman he loves
And claims not to put anything above her.
I am his other half, heart and soul.
It only scares me when he loses control.
It feels like ages since the last time I cried
But all this time I never tried
To let the pain out.
Now I am lying crumbled to the ground
Hearing his footsteps I know that he has found me!
This time I pretend that I am dead
Which would not be that bad to take instead,
Many times I wish I were dead
It is better than planning your life ahead, with him in the picture.
For my child I most survive and battle on
For my child I must be strong!
I love you but I must move on..............................................................