I can't Accept It

I can't accept it,
Believe that she's gone,
I'll never see her again,
It seems so wrong,

It's not sinking in,
I can't seem to cry,
Because when I let myself think,
I only want to die,

I'm trying to fool myself,
And I sometimes forget,
But then I remember,
And it makes me so upset,

I feel so lost,
Don't know what to do,
Keep thinking I'll go and see her,
Just like I used to do,

But I just have to accept,
That times have changed,
And no matter how much I beg,
Life will never be the same,

I keep thinking it's a joke,
That soon the hospital will call,
To say she's still there,
And she's not dead at all,

Because how can she be dead,
When we're left behind,
I wanted to be with her forever,
But life's so unkind,

I am so proud to have known her,
And everyone can tell,
I was living in heaven,
But now I'm living in hell,

Accepting she has gone,
Is like accepting defeat,
But death is inevitable,
It's not something you can beat,

So what do I do now,
Accept that it's true,
Live with the pain,
What more can I do.