I tried...?

For once i tried,
i don't know why?
i got humiliated
was embarrassed!

Now im too far behind,
i cant keep up,
sick of this
What did i miss?

Lost it all,
watch me fall
i have f*#cked up,
trust my luck!

What to do?
where to go?
So confused,
now i loose.

This is me,
how lame am i?
no wonder i sit all day..
and cry!