If only..

Without you i feel so lost,
suddenly i don't know where to go,
i don't know what i have to do,

Whenever i heard bicycles' bell ringing,
at first i thought it was you returning,
bringing back for us our meals,

I'm so guilty and sad,
that day when you had the accident,
you went out to help my alter my clothing,

If only i didn't ask you for help,
if only i asked you to stay at home,
all these will never happen,

How awful i felt,
when i received that call,
the call of evil, doom,

I don't know what to do,
my heart and mind is so jumbled up,
i feel so empty, so hollow inside,

There's a voice inside me,
telling me 'Get to her quickly!'
telling me to start pumping my legs,

Am i ever grateful to God,
that He didn't take you away,
that you're still here with me.