I'm not crying for you

Honey, I'm not crying for you,
I'm crying because of her,
and my feelings that tell me to do,
but I can't help myself.

The feeling is to strong,
so please forgive me,
for this has gone on to long,
and I'm growing to weak.

I can't hide what I truly feel,
I'm really sorry to say this,
but what I want is just so real,
and what I have with you isn't even realistic.

I look at my girl,
and think of what I've done,
all because of something called "love,"
My thoughts are out of this world.

I hate to be so cruel,
but hell, we fight all the time,
its like my girl and I are in a duel,
that seems to never end.

I just can't stand these worthless agreements,
gaining nothing from them everyday,
but getting older each day living with out a cause,
my girl will soon learn, when I get things my way.

She will learn how it feels,
how I felt all those years,
now she can live life as I lived,
she can cry where I left tears.

She can finish each breath,
with a thought of lost hope,
thinking I'm coming back,
and all I have to say is "Nope."