Happy..?

I thought you were happy..
Then, all of a sudden you ended your life..
You acted so..normal..
So happy..
We were best friends..
Why didn't you ever tell me something was bothering you..?
I would've helped..
But you went off on your own and did this..

Now.. I scream.
I write on my walls..
In my own blood..
'HE WAS HAPPY!!'
Hundreds of times..
But deep down..
You weren't, were you?