Only the start

Every waking thought is of you
My heart is left decayed and blue
I cannot cry these troubles away
They cut deeper and deeper with each passing day
I cannot take a single step forward
For fear of what I'm heading toward
I'm drowning in this silence that has crept among us
So much pain, yet so much lust
I cannot breathe, for every breath I choke on regret
Sometimes wishing we never met
I've lost my grip
I stumble & trip
Gravity pulls me toward the ground
No mercy is found
I'm no longer relentless,
I've given up,I've fallen apart,
I thought it was the end..
It was only the start....