Losing my mind..

~Now about this poem, the one I'm referring to is not dead physically, just dead in my heart, I seriously do not luv him in any way except friendship, but I do care for him like how I cared for the one I luv..but nothing matters now, I just wanna get it over with..~

I've lost the sanity of my mind,
Long before you're dead,
Yet here you are again,
Still existing in my eyes.

You tear it all apart,
Every piece that you patched up,
Now the wounds seem deeper,
And it bleeds just like how it did.

Remember what we always say?
That we shall be friends forever?
I guess forever doesn't last,
Cause we ain't friends no more.

I'm sorry guy I miss you,
But what more can I do,
You hurt me way too much,
I just couldn't forgive you.

You made me feel insignificant,
Like I'm not real on this earth,
I tried getting rid of the feeling,
But I guess I just failed once more.

I know I'm just a friend to you,
But you meant much more to me,
Though I never did fall for you,
I just can't help thinking about you.

You know how much I hated you,
I hate the way you made me feel,
I didn't want to be your friend again,
Cause I didn't want to care no more.

It hurts to care the way I did,
This friendship I wish I still can keep,
But the longer I hang on the more I bleed,
So sorry my friend I cared too much..