Dont tell me your life sucks..

I lost a lot of the most important people in my life.. my big brother to suicide. one of my best friends to leukemia. another best friend to a car crash. our cheerleading coach more or less like another mother to all of us because of bacterial meningitis. another best friend to her dads house 6 hours away. and yet another best friend; to stupid stupid decisions and her wasting her life and not wanting me apart of it anymore i guess. I'm trying to stay focused & positive..but God's delt me some pretty shitty cards in only 15 years. Just waiting to see whats to come..

I guess what im t rying to get at is that i know some ppl out there come to me wanting to kill them self cuz there bf just broke up with them..and i think to myself..wow if only they new the stuff that ive gone though or other ppl in this world..and yet they want to kill themself..just dont tell me your life sucks and its that bad that you want to die..cuz i live everday knowing that is gunna geet better..even if it takes time..and if any1 out there realli knows something in this world that is good enough to die..tell me cuz you will never make me know that there is...

--Ash