If I Could Go Back

This was written in the form of a song or a rap and so that is why it has a hook and 2 verses, it origannly had 3 verses but the 3rd verse wasn't finished so i only used these two. n-e wayz read and i hope u feel the emotion in this story.

(Hook)
If I could go back, wayyy back
To my child hood and get all my family back
Change the way I was and try more to interact
With the ones that I loved yet never got a chance
To show them how I cared cause now there gone
Living in the sky where there souls will forever live on
If I could go back to when I was young
I would make shore my love was vivid before they moved on

(verse-1)About 6 years back I was just a young kid living up to no good/ Creating havoc also making problems typical child raised in the hood/ See I was just having fun but that fact of the matter is/ I was angry at my life don’t even know who my daddy is/And my momma she couldn’t help so I just lived by the streets/ My uncle Jimmy we was close and he was a G but now lived by peace/ He told me never live to fast, life is to precious to waste/ Of course I didn’t listen plus he said he’d always be there to face/ Any burden I ever had so I thought I’d live how I want to/ It’s too bad I never went to see him much but I was living the struggle/ Hustling and making cash only 10 years old might as well say hell with my uncle/ He don’t know what he missing he crazy if he think I should stop/Living my life this way where money is made and feelings are dropped/ Suddenly I stopped visiting then one day I realized that I was wrong/ I got a call from my auntie she told me that my uncle is gone/ He got shot near a bar he was just walking home/ Two drunken people walked up armed and they didn’t know/ They thought he was someone else and so they shot the 9 mill. / I’m crying cause I was up to no good while he was out getting killed/ Now my uncle is dead and I should have spent more time with him/ Instead I chose not to listen now I can’t visit and learn why I’m living/

(Hook)
If I could go back, wayyy back
To my child hood and get all my family back
Change the way I was and try more to interact
With the ones that I loved yet never got a chance
To show them how I cared cause now there gone
Living in the sky where there souls will forever live on
If I could go back to when I was young
I would make shore my love was vivid before they moved on

(Verse-2) Now I’m a teenager just turned 14 years older/ Living life as a teen does, partying to take the weight of my shoulders/ It was a time in my life I was suppose to be learning the ways of my culture/ So in the future I would teach the children as I was by my grandfather/ The knowledge he told me I barely ever even listened/ Rather be out with friends and chilling then being here with him/ He tried to show me the happiness that everyday holds/ And the meaning of life and the necessities that help us all grow/Just another boring day so I avoided going to his teachings/stayed away for a few years origonaly was just a plan for a few weekends/ But I just kept having fun and soon I was told I had to move/
With my father in New York but I thought this was good news/ No more having to sneak away in order to evade being bored/ New York’s full of fun so teachings by grandfather are no more/ A year later school was about to start it was the end of august/My mother called crying turns out my grandfather had a bad heart in his chest/ He’s gone, now the teachings are lost I was so stupid/ Went back for his funeral couldn’t cry regretting for what I did to him/ Left him hanging so many times and for so long/ When I could have been learning something useful by no more cause he’s gone/ And now I’m lost with so many questions with no answers that I would have had/ If I would have had the patience to listen instead I was out acting bad/ Thought I would have learned from loosing my uncle jimmy/
But I was grieving from his death so I’d do whatever to take the pain away give me/Some more weed and alcohol I’ll drink away the pain/ Smoke away all them negative thoughts plaguing my brain/ Good-bye grandfather until we meet again I’ll see you soon/
I can’t live by your teachings never took the time to listen to you/
i'm sorry...

(Hook)
If I could go back, wayyy back
To my child hood and get all my family back
Change the way I was and try more to interact
With the ones that I loved yet never got a chance
To show them how I cared cause now there gone
Living in the sky where there souls will forever live on
If I could go back to when I was young
I would make shore my love was vivid before they moved on