Lying to myself

I walk down the hall everybody ask r u ok?
I smile back saying everything been great
I laugh as people say I heard what happen
u can fine the right one some day
I smile back saying I don't need him anyways

But if u cut me apart u can see my heart is broken up
I hold back the tears and say sweetly that am happy
When am all alone I cant help myself but cry
I try to hide all this feelings inside
My soul is so weak I even feel like am dead
I put on a smile but deeply is bleeding like crazy
Saying get me out of here I don't want to be here in... darkness

Days went by but my heart is still the same
Remembering your name
People say time is what u needs to move on
But times without u is what is so painful
I wonder how long do I have to lie to myself
These days I don't know what to believe anymore

i guess i will just put on this smile and say am fine today...