Suicide kisses...

Yeah i thought about doing it,
i tried and it hurt just a bit.
then then pain got better,
but i still felt like writing a letter.
a letter of suicide.
it was me to decide, the "end".
but i received a phone call,
and that changed it all.
i didn't want to believe it.
i couldn't bare to hear ,
that someone actually did care.
so instead of suicide,
and going where i would be missed.
i decided to give myself a suicide kiss.
suicide kisses relieve the pain,
the pain from the thoughts of the person to blame.