The hurt of Being Rejected

I found it out
After being confused as to if he likes me or not
I finally found out

He was not only talking to me
For a while he was involve in someone else
Never told me just kept me in suspense but i found out

Did it hurt??????
Like hell it did
It felt like i was being kicked around and played for a fool
It felt as if i was not wanted anymore
Why did he leave me confuse for so long

From the beginning i asked him if he was involve and he told me NO
Like i fool i believed him for i admired him for about 4 years and finally thought that i should try my luck
But no , It wasn't luck at all but yet another heart break , yet another turn down.

Laugh, did u tell me to laugh
How can i do such a thing after being hurt so much .

huh, the devil knows when to attack his victim and now that i am weak i can hear him telling me rebel , rebel , and go into a world by your elf do what u want and no one will tell ,
But i know that God would'tant that .

but it hurts , it hurts soooooooo bad , the tears are there but i wont let them fall , maybe someday i would be happy again but for now i am putting up the wall .
the wall which will block out my love from everyone , the wall which would keep out all those who try to get into my heart .
Of course i will make this wall only for God to be able to enter but everyone else must stay out.