Cant describe

I hate the way i feel inside,
This yearning, burning, fire of life,
The strangest feelings i can't describe,
But here i go I'll give it a try,
Waiting,
Wanting,
Hoping,
Dreaming,
Hating,
Haunting,
Moping,
Screaming,
Loving,
Trusting,
Giving,
Trying,
Shoving,
Unlusting,
Unliving,
Dying,
Saying it aloud seems so strange,
Do feelings like this ever change?
Can sometimes see me glowing bright,
This fire inside is still alight,
Caring,
Promising,
Pouting,
Joking,
Overbearing,
Dishonesty,
Shouting,
Choking,
Exploring,
Beautiful,
Open,
Thinking,
Ignoring,
Untruthful,
Broken,
Sinking,
Suppose some things in life aren't meant to be,
Guess that goes for a place for me,
It's far too late for this to be said,
The fires out,
I'm already dead!