Hope is what draws me to try everyday
a hope I carry for a better day
I wish for you here to enjoy our new life
a new life we have made with the conception of our son
You chosen to leave us behind to feed your craving for fire
fire is what lured you to the flame of UN-burning desire
you got caught in your selfishness and your chances have run low
I am alone, alone to carry on and make what's best of this life that's unknown.
I have no knowledge of what lies ahead just the confident knowledge life will get better again
I miss you so much and it hurts to face the facts that you may never come back and it will take time to get back on track.
time is passing and our son is growing so much, it kills me inside to think you'll never get to see him grow.
to think about the age where he asks so many questions, what am I to say when he asks why isn't daddy here, It will kill me to let him know
this is what I fear
I fear inside that life my not go as planned, that the talk you once spoke was nothing more than wishing
I now lay here to face these facts alone, to realize now that my instincts were right, I was to remain alone.
alone you left me...to raise our son.
it is hard to take onsuon suchew life but I know the good times will come
I will build myself to fight and overcome
overcome this pain, ovecovercome suffering
I must go on and just wish for you to come back to me
life has a plan for us and though we may not know
I know it is for the better and we must not let go.
even though you hurt me and done me wrong
I really miss you and your warmth and presence is what I long
i pray for the day to come quite sooner but all I can do is pray.
