Note from a friend

-Note from a friend-

Please tell me whats wrong I want to help you out.
Is it life, are you full of doubt?
Are you having troubles with in your family.
Or is it simply something I can't see?

I'm full of advice to give you.
I'm here to be your friend, and help you out too
I want to know whats wrong?
You've been like this for so long.

I care for you I really do, sometimes it just wont show.
I'm sorry I don't know what to do, sorry i just don't know.
Are you lost, confused, are you feeling all a lone?
No one to turn to, no where to go, something thats unknown?

Well here me out, you have me
I'm here to stay, here to be
Here to be your friend
Until the day we die, until the end

So tell me whats on your mind, whats making you so angry, so cold?
Its starting to get ridiculous, fights one after another getting more old.
I'm trying so hard to be a good friend but you keep dragging it on
But I'm just sick of fighting, its never ending, it will never be gone

You don't believe me or anything i say and I'm asking you why?
I love you and i care but all that i hear is w/e goodbye.
Is that goodbye forever? Do you want me to leave?
It's your choice as long as your relieved.

But if you change your mind ill be there in a heartbeat.
I'll always be here for you, I might as well take a seat.
You've changed so much it worries me
Makes me kind of sad, I loved what you use to be

So please tell me what i can do
Tell me what can help you
I just don't want to see you like this
Goodbye i love you and heres a kiss

- The Reply -

Its not what you think, not even close, not even a little bit
Its the things you say, people say and everything around that makes me throw a fit
But this pain gets worser everyday
The cuts get deeper as you walk away

The feelings i have become more strong
The wrongs things in my life become more wrong
The things i think about makes me want to cry
The feeling inside makes me want to die

I just want to curl up into a ball and sit there
Sit in my dark room, in the corner, this pain i cannot bare
My problems become more and more real
My stress starts to show and starts making everything a bigger deal

But its impossible to explain the way i am right now.
I don't know what happened or even how?
Don't know how i got like this, don't know why.
Don't know what makes me feel down, not even feel high

I just don't understand myself or my stupid life
So i cut myself with this knife
Not to end anthing just to get my mind off the pain inside
I will never feel cheerful again, my happy thoughts just died.

So there is nothing you can do to make feel glad
I'll just live my life in misery, always feeling sad
So when i die be glad and smile with me
Because you know ill be happy

And you ask me why i don't think you care
It's simple, I feel like your never there
But this could just be selfish you have problems of your own
Its just the way I'm thinking and i just don't want to be a lone

And even when you tell me time after time you wanna be my friend
I still have a feeling that this will never end
I'm sorry i cant trust people its hard for me to do
For Ive been lied to way to much and hurt a lot too

I just don't know how to explain anything i guess i did my best
Maybe someday ill find a way to tell the rest
But there's to many thoughts going through my head, i don't know where to start
Should i start whats going on in my head or what I'm feeling in my heart?

So now you have a little slice of how my mind works
There's something in my head, thats where the demon lurks
Maybe now you'll be more understanding and maybe you can see
But for now all you need to do is show that you really do love me