The life I truely miss

Pain courses through my veins
and sadness leaves a cold ache in my heart.
all their lying and backstabbing,
I can't handle it, it's tearing me apart

I want to be invisible to the world
rocking back and forth biting my nails
tears streaming down my face
as all hope fails

i try so hard not to look back
not to think on the past
during the time I was happy,
foolishly thinking it would last

Their words slap me in the face
and ring in my ears
all the horrible things they've said about me
My weaknesses and fears

everything surrounds me
in a dark blanket of fear
stopping the sun from touching my skin
Happiness will never reach me here

I'm so cold
in my dark lonely abyss
wishing everything would go back to normal
to the life I truly miss