Last Night

Last night, I was sleeping
then suddenly I was awakened
by those loud words, hurtful loud words
being said in front of my door
I asked myself "Why?"
"What did I do this time?"
as the seconds pass, more hurtful things were said
It brought a tear to my eye
but I refused to cry
I wanted to be strong,
but it was just too much

I tried to stop the tears,
but it just kept flowing like Niagara falls
I cried, I couldn't stop myself
I cried silently,
it was so hard to breathe
Then a thought came to me,
"if i stopped breathing this will be over"

Soon enough, she stopped
Those 23 minutes felt more like 2 hours

I wanted to go to your room and get the gun hiding in your closet
I wanted to shoot myself in front of you
I know that'll bring a smile to your face
but I just didn't have the courage just yet

I haven't said my goodbyes and apologies to my friends
I knew I wasn't ready
so I just cried myself to sleep
like the coward that I am
secretly wishing
that I would just stop breathing
and not be awake the next morning...

**It happened last Nov 3, 2006

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