Tonight I Say Good-Bye

I don't know how to start this
I don't want to say good bye
But it's probably for the best
And I know you know why

I can't believe that you could do this
I can't believe you can cause me this much pain
You have no idea how much it hurts
I'd rather die than feel this ache

You blow it off like it's nothing at all
To me it means much more
This happens way too much
I'm not taking the blame like I always did before

I considered you a best friend
No, cross that, more like a sister
To even look back at what you've done
God, it's like salt on a blister

I can't look you in the face anymore
And tell you that I love you
Because I'd be lying to myself
And I can no longer trust you

I'm sick of being the doormat
I'm tired of being the one who cares more
I'm exhausted of this friendship
Let me just show you to the door

I wish we could've worked this out
But then again, I really wish we don't
Because I don't need more sh-it added onto my life
I'd rather be left alone

I can't put on a smile and say I'm happy
I'm upset as fuc-king hell
You think I wanted this to happen?
You meant more to me than I could ever tell

I swear, you were my first priority
I would've taken a bullet for you in an instant
I would've died for you any day
But now I've become resistant

I really will miss you
And I wonder why I ever cared
I'm scared of ever trusting anyone else
Our friendship was so damn rare

I hope you know that you were my best friend
Tonight I said goodbye
But I have one last thing to say
Thanks for the best time of my life.