Wow, this is an amazing poem. && i'm so sorry for your lost. I never lost my best friend but i have lost my best friends brother. But i give you respect for actually staying who you are && i know it's not easy to do it but you seem like an amazing person && i bet you are. && sharing this with us is a step to let yourself breath it out. thank you for sharing it.
keep it up. keep on writing. love always && forever.